All relationships have their ups and downs, a natural progession. Sometimes they will be high as a kite, filling you with glee. Other times there will be dips where your paths barely cross and your alone whilst together. And there's everything in between too. Or so I've found. Monogomous people seem to forget this when they see a polyamorous relationship going wrong, or even not being perfect. Sure, polyamory has its complexities but the general problems will quite probably still be there even if other partners aren't involved.
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Friday, 24 December 2010
All Loved Up...and then some
I'm in love. Well, that's nothing new; I've been in love for nearly ten years now. But now I can say I've also fallen in love with the most beautiful woman I've ever met. To love two people may seem strange to some people but, for me, it feels like more of the most natural things in the world and I am so unbelievably happy and grateful to S and B for being part of my life.
I always thought I was lucky to have found B. He's been my rock for close to ten years and I cannot begin to think of my life without him. I have shared happy and sad times with him. We've been through so much and come out stronger on the other side and he's always been wonderful about me exploring my other needs and desires. I even have him to thank for getting us to that first U35 munch where I met S. Without him, I would not be the person I am today.
And that person now loves S too. I got over myself and said the words, knowing that I had to; I couldn't keep them in any longer. I knew I could say them without it being a question and expecting a reply but to get one was a special early Christmas present that has had me grinning like an idiot for days.
I have been so lucky to have found not one but two people who make me feel so alive and that makes me want to shout from the rooftops, to tell everyone I know why I'm so happy...but I can't. Well, I could but I don't want to cope with the fallout right now. I don't need to cause hurt and pain and taint the happy thoughts and feelings I have with the stresses, good meaning and potential hurt from others. I already have a sister in law who, although not causing too much drama, has made it quite clear she doesn't approve of our lifestyle choices and deems us immature. One day, there will come a time when I can't hold it in any longer but for now, I'm happy to grin to myself, knowing that few people know the true source of my Christmas cheer.
Oh, and I've always got Mrs Santa to sneak a look at on my phone!
I always thought I was lucky to have found B. He's been my rock for close to ten years and I cannot begin to think of my life without him. I have shared happy and sad times with him. We've been through so much and come out stronger on the other side and he's always been wonderful about me exploring my other needs and desires. I even have him to thank for getting us to that first U35 munch where I met S. Without him, I would not be the person I am today.
And that person now loves S too. I got over myself and said the words, knowing that I had to; I couldn't keep them in any longer. I knew I could say them without it being a question and expecting a reply but to get one was a special early Christmas present that has had me grinning like an idiot for days.
I have been so lucky to have found not one but two people who make me feel so alive and that makes me want to shout from the rooftops, to tell everyone I know why I'm so happy...but I can't. Well, I could but I don't want to cope with the fallout right now. I don't need to cause hurt and pain and taint the happy thoughts and feelings I have with the stresses, good meaning and potential hurt from others. I already have a sister in law who, although not causing too much drama, has made it quite clear she doesn't approve of our lifestyle choices and deems us immature. One day, there will come a time when I can't hold it in any longer but for now, I'm happy to grin to myself, knowing that few people know the true source of my Christmas cheer.
Oh, and I've always got Mrs Santa to sneak a look at on my phone!
Sunday, 19 December 2010
Christmas
Yesterday was a day of pre-Christmas festive joy with the last under-35 munch of the year during the afternoon and watching It's A Wonderful Life at a friend's house. The munch was lovely, with close friends and new acquaintances filling the bar with laughter and kinky chatter. It got me perfectly in the mood to go and watch a film that I know so many people rave about but I'd never had the chance to watch all the way through.
Christmas is a time of year when you want those that you love close to you and last night was no exception. I watched the film cuddling with S on one side of me and B just behind me on the back of the sofa. The message of the film is clear; no man is a failure who has friends and sitting there, with people who I barely knew just a few months ago, now feeling part of something, I felt really happy to be where I am. I started to tear up when other people were saying how much it means to them and I hope that I can continue to strengthen the friendships I have with these lovely new people.
Although Christmas Day itself will be spent with my parents and brother, I will be ringing in the New Year with S and B and hope that it's the start of a very special year together with them both.
Christmas is a time of year when you want those that you love close to you and last night was no exception. I watched the film cuddling with S on one side of me and B just behind me on the back of the sofa. The message of the film is clear; no man is a failure who has friends and sitting there, with people who I barely knew just a few months ago, now feeling part of something, I felt really happy to be where I am. I started to tear up when other people were saying how much it means to them and I hope that I can continue to strengthen the friendships I have with these lovely new people.
Although Christmas Day itself will be spent with my parents and brother, I will be ringing in the New Year with S and B and hope that it's the start of a very special year together with them both.
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